NOVEMBER 30, 2021: MERGING WITH UNCREATED ENERGY

I finally stayed at home that night, resting and pushing off the demands of sleep after a visit where I as usual merged with the constant flow of uncreated energy. This mutual give and take strengthens my core energy and is, plainly stated, a sensual experience as much as a rejuvenation within my energetic body. This happens a lot to me and I enjoy merging into the moment of now.

On returning from these experiences, I rested, pushed the chair seat back, and fell into a perfect balance of borderline sleep and active awareness. This sleep/awareness is a very active state and a precursor to the release of the soul into infinity.

And that is what happened. With a shock my consciousness shot out from me into a circular shape, ringed in a kaleidoscope of colors and rotating white light. It was like a pulsing starburst. I was there in a flash of no time and then reached out to touch the ringed lights. Instead of entering as I wanted to, my energetic body/soul was forcefully pushed back into my physical body.

Completely focused on this new experience, I formed the intention to go back to the pulsing rings of color and light. I very much wanted to go there and see what this was. I knew that somewhere within the rings were answers to my many questions. Again, I was pushed back into my body. Consciousness was flicking back and forth with clarity and speed. I thought this must be a dream. I had never had (or did not remember having) this experience before.

It wasn’t a dream. My back ached from resting too long in one posture. The tingling continued throughout my body.

Again, I looked to that place and thought I could go there but I was not allowed to stay. I saw clearly now with my eyes the pulsing ring as though through a telescope.

At this rejection I felt a strong push of emotion and desire. My life’s credo has always been, “Move forward to face the unknown. Never quit.”

Some part of me insisted the rings were there for a reason.

For me. A gift? A Trojan horse? I couldn’t back away.

My consciousness again on direction moved out from my body. I could see both my body and the shaped intent of my energetic body. Focused on reaching out “there” again, I collected my consciousness and for a third time shot out of the room into the heart of the rings. I entered and, in that fraction of a second, saw everything and understood nothing.

I was snapped back into my body like an elastic cord returning to its source.

Three attempts were enough for now. Tired I closed the connection and decided to sleep. And I did. I fell into a dreamless state of darkness and rest.

As powerful as this experience was, I still do not know what happened.

The Pattern is all this and more.